Meet the Skeletons From My Past
My past, like a lot of people’s, is full of a bunch of self-scripted scenarios that I’m not necessarily proud of. We’ve all done it, right? I think about the time(s) I had that extra glass of Vodka soda that brought to some strange place at the end of the night. Or the time I gave my ex-boyfriend step-by-step instructions as to how he could win me back (even though he had no intentions to win me back).
Yeah, there’s no doubt I have quite a few things to be embarrassed about. But you know what? If I had a second chance, I would do it all exactly the same way I did it the first time.
Why? Because it brought me right here, to this exact place from where I write to you.
A while back, I decided I would stop torturing myself for all those not-so-great decisions I made in the past. There was a time I would sit there replaying the scenario over and over in my head as if I was my own torture victim. It was my way of punishing myself for what I had done.
What was the result? I always felt less than and extremely guilty. Where did it get me? Nowhere good, and nowhere I wanted to be.
Now that I know better, I understand that my path has been absolutely perfect. It has been the beautiful disaster it was meant to be. With even the slightest change, I might not be who I am today. And I definitely wouldn’t have the knowledge to be able to share with you. See, servicing you with this blog post, is just one of the many reasons why I’d make my “mistakes” a million times over. Ok, maybe not a million….
I even look at the people who I love and think I wouldn’t take them any other way. For example, some people ask me if it’s hard who be with someone who has a child. My answer is always the same: I love him for who he is today, and without his past experiences he wouldn’t be the person I love. My only concern is the person he shows me every day. And I know he would never judge me for my past because those experiences created the person he loves today, as well.
Today, I encourage you to forgive yourself for any past mishaps. You can’t judge the past you. She was working off the information she had at the moment. How could she make any other choice? Instead, have compassion for that person who was doing the best they could with the information they had at the moment — and forgive.
Plus, if it wasn’t for her, you obviously wouldn’t be so cool and forward thinking as you are today. I only know that about you because you ended up right here, on my blog, at this exact moment. How perfect is that?